The lie we live with thinking we truly love God when we still don’t is what kills us. We don’t partake in a worldly pleasure because we have to, but because we want to. But our goal in life isn’t to cause someone to bear the fruit of sin, but our goal is to help people grow in holiness. But we have to really want to find God, because this path is incredibly harder than it is for a religious. 2:13, NASB). Read one per day and, in reading that Psalm, look for the character and nature of God. They are like a cute dogie: always there smiling wagging its tail filling us with the love we crave. About five years ago, my life had fallen apart. Surrender. I know this sounds very hard to do especially if we are married and with children, but it is possible. Maybe it’s revenge, or sexual sin. Desiring God alone, means we only seek what is pleasing to God...we only seek things that are to know, serve and love God. What a cross it is to live for so long away from Who our hearts yearn so greatly to be with. I get nothing but trouble all day long; every morning brings me pain (Psalm 73:13-14 NLT). Not from depression and hopelessness…but from LOVE. Will Anointing of the Sick Forgive Mortal Sins? Truly, if someone were to pick us up and drop us off onto a deserted island, we just know we would go crazy without our gadgets and gizmos, without out our friends and family, without out our job and sports, what ever it is that we can’t live without, since we don’t yet have a true relationship with God and the perfect joy and sanctification God alone provides. As I drove home from church, something washed over me. I highly recommend this book to anyone who is struggling with God and joy. We die and reject God's mercy strictly from our pride. Tragic! It is truly horrible how many sins we cover so we won’t see them because we want to continue in them.Â, How can we repent of any sin and approach God with a humble heart to receive His help (grace) so we can obtain this kind of love for God, if we refuse to even see our sins? I long to love my Jesus and I will to love Him perfectly, no matter what the cost, no matter what the sacrifice.”. Want to desire God? Having fear of sinning is wonderful and a must have, but having anxiety over our sins and having no hope for salvation keeps us from the life of peace God wants us to have... Desiring God alone can seem like an impossibility, but it truly isn't. I began to crave the Word of God, reading huge chunks at a time. Yet, we are easily coaxed into desiring much that isn't God and loving God only some of the time, giving the rest of our heart to the world... Penance is something we do in reparation (to make right our wrong) for our sins. Truly not one thought, word or action is supposed to be outside of love of God through loving our neighbor. A child can’t find God’s love and survive on it, no a child needs human love to thrive. Now is the time to change. This we need to admit. We can’t let the devil deceive us. Sadly some never over come their desire for their attachment and live suffering from the loss–never accepting God’s will nor embracing His perfect love and peace. When the pain in our souls, as we long for God, is so great that we simply can’t stand to be without God…like we are devastatingly parched for thirst from working tirelessly in the sun…needing water (God)…then we are coming to desire God alone. Not that God doesn’t come to us through man to support us and show us compassion when we need it so we can one day obtain the faith we need to suffer like Christ; He does. As a new year dawns, consider that God’s word offers great treasures on a first reading, and many of its greatest ones as we reread year after year. However, most of the time the devil has us saying with our words we love God above all but our actions prove we are deceiving ourselves as our hearts think about and desire to be with them…not united with God. However, for all sins we commit after our baptism, we are accountable for them and need to be forgiven and atone for them from God's mercy... God has a wonderful, yet different plan, for all of our lives that will lead us to a fantastic life of joy on earth and for all eternity. Image Credit: Jared Erondu/Unsplash. John of the Cross. “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing” (Romans 15:13). Even what seem like acts of charity towards another (as I explain)…are not to love God, but to really to love ourselves. Will an Indulgence Take Away the Punishment for My Sins? We need to acknowledge we still don’t have enough faith. For example, it often says in the Psalms that God is our refuge. Here are four simple ways to grow in our desire for God more. Why would we even want any of that nonsense in the world if we have God? When we desire God alone, we aren’t seeking to make ourselves happy…not with anything in the world, not with a single person, not even with our works of mercy or even God; all we want is to LOVE GOD. God’s happiness is all we care about. Basically, our first parents, Adam and Eve rebelled against God and all creation was cursed as a result, and also as a consequence, we inherited a sinful nature which hates God, hates His commandments and weirdly tries to impress God by scantily obeying His commands. Yet, we deserve nothing but suffering for the sins we have committed against God, any pleasure we have is most undeserved. Therefore, if you love to suffer in silence, don’t treat everyone like you…most aren’t at that point spiritually and still need to “feel” loved by man to not become depressed when sick and needy, since they don’t have the faith in God to receive His magnificent consolations to suffer like Christ. And that seeking of love from them is really hard to let go of, since we love to feel loved. We need to almost running from the attention from man (if possible) so the devil doesn’t have an opportunity to grab a hold of us and drive our hearts to love the doting over and compassion so to strip away the sacrifice for souls. True sorrow is when we detest our sins so much we would rather suffer the greatest pains than offend our beloved Lord in the slightest way... God intentionally made us all differently. It has been filled with highs and lows. Longing for someone else’s husband is … “They [the lost aren’t] purging away all self-seeking in spiritual things [seeking God for our benefit]…and [suffer from] spiritual gluttony….They render themselves spiritual enemies of the cross of Christ, for true spirituality [that leads to Heaven] seeks for bitterness [the cross] rather than sweetness in God [rather then wanting to experience God’s love; they are focused on loving God by Way of the cross. This must end, if we seek to desire God alone. But with God’s grace and our fervent desire to amend, we can. Mortal sins are more complex than we might know. How do I tap in to my true heart’s desires — the ones that lead me to His best for me? And, it has been filled with more joy and blessings than I could ever begin to recall. Therefore, we should be more than happy to bear whatever cross God sees fit to deliver us. But sadly most haven’t learned God’s lessons to help bring us to salvation from the loss, and continue life as if nothing ever happened and simply go to the world to fill our void when God’s love that is waiting for us. I’m not going outside, it’s too hot…we declare, as we run from any personal discomfort and force others to comply with our wishes so not have any for of a cross. That is why it is very important to visit the lonely because they need the affection from us since they don’t know how to obtain it from God yet. But if we were honest with ourselves, we would see we don’t do that. We must desire God’s love alone. What would we do without our phones or friends! Truly, if we long for anything other than God and His will for us, we are seeking our will–sin, which is a deadly desire. We can see our craving for love, approval, affection, and attention when we lack silence. “Man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh [growing in holiness together]” (Matthew 10:37-38). Too often we desire other things more than God. After all, his way didn’t work out so well for me. Oh, how much harder it is to let go of loving them over God and desiring their affection instead of God’s when our family dotes over us! We will start with the huge things we see that crave love/happiness from or those great pride building things we run to for self-value or satisfaction and remove them first. To grow in true humility, we need to not seek to be loved, but to seek only to love. Why Does God Allow Temptation, Suffering and Punishment? In English, to be satisfied means to have your fill of what you desire, expect or need. I have never been the same. God can change our "heart," giving us the desire to please Him. Imagine never wanting to find happiness with the world…just God. 10 Marriage Goals Every Couple Should Have for 2021, This site is a proud member of the Salem Web Network, a subsidiary of, Copyright © 2021, Crosswalk.com. Sadly, most don’t have what it takes to even begin on the path towards Life since we love so many of our sins so much. We don’t have to enter into a religious life to be saved; we can hate the world and still live in the world. No one comes to the Father except through me [Jesus]” (John 14:6). Even though I wanted to run, there was nowhere I could hide. The journey began with a moment of surrender, a moment when I told him that I didn’t want this journey but I would take it, a moment when I asked him to do an amazing work in me so he could do an amazing work through me. In that moment, as the words escaped my mouth, I felt the presence of my Savior. How do we come to know our attachments? Desire for Perfect Beauty. If we serve another and they are kind to us and God blesses us, we don’t seek that love or blessing…we are indifferent to it all and only desire what God allows. For example: if we have to work extra hard, we tell others to seek their pity; if we are sick, we notify others seeking their compassion. What Sins Can I Continue to Commit and Still Receive Holy Communion? “Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Plus, our hearts still choose other things and don’t always go to God…we still want some of the world. “Let nothing else please us and cause us delight except our Creator, Redeemer and Savior, the only true God” (St. Francis of Assisi). or do we go to God. Article Images Copyright ©, 3 Beautiful Ways God Transformed My Desire, How to Start 2021 Strong in the Midst of Chaos. When I enter into a time of silence with God and allow my mind to be drawn to who he is, my desire for God grows. God desires for us to desire Him, and He works in us “to will and to work for His good pleasure” (Phil. 1 Corinthians 4:4). Choose to live like the saints who have chosen to find the Way to Christ and chose to suffer like Jesus has done in blissful silence, trusting in God to provide all of the compassion and love we need, then we will come to desire God alone. That is real reason so few saints are married people as it is terribly hard to surrender looking for happiness through worldly life, but we must let go of our family, friends, pets, and all things that we run to for happiness and run to God instead. You can read more of Dena’s experiences with her Great I AM on her blog Dena's Devos. God allows everything to lead us to Life, no matter how painful it is and will make everything better after we suffer a little and lead us closer to the path of Life—for those who do in fact trust in Him. To remove all that we desire which isn’t good, we need to come to an awareness of just how often we crave love and things instead of God. I began to see him use me to help others walking the same difficult path I had walked, and I was overwhelmed that he would consider me a worthy vessel. “God loves, and his love may certainly be called eros, yet it is also totally agape” (DCE 9). But remember going over board leads to love of man’s affections, not love of God’s consolations and the cross, and doing too little leads people into anger and self-pity and depression as they declare we really don’t love after all. “But what is my [Jesus’] will, except that you should want to love Me above all things and not desire anything but Me” (Jesus to St. Bridget of Sweden). My future was uncertain. It has been filled with more heartache and pain than I care to remember. God willing, after reading this article, we will develop a clearer understanding of what are some of the sinful things we choose (desire), that pushes away God’s love so we can repent and change. We can love our family, however we must desire to know, serve and love God in them. with love…when you are done with this article click here as I have explained how we can work towards loving God in others in every thought, word and deed.) For example: I have tried to guide others to strive to live for God alone and told them God doesn’t want us to waste our time on fruitless nonsense that merits nothing…and sadly to justify their sins they said, “I deserve some fun.” The words right out of their own mouths proved what they go to for “fun” and it isn’t God. Please read “What Are Mortal Sins” (link at bottom of this article). Wow! I had no idea what the journey would entail, but I simply knew that I was willing to take a chance on him again. Unless we have allowed God’s grace to transform us greatly, we want to be happy, comfortable and loved by man…Yes, we are self-absorbed and mostly only do what we do for our happiness. Then after, from God’s grace, we have banished them from our life we will get down to the more finite consolations/approvals we seek, that have been hidden–until God reveled them to us–that we delight in that simply must go too. If we are reciprocated love in return–great, but alert that we don’t allow the devil, who is looking to sneak into our lives and kill us, to make us addicted to love. We will know we are on the right path when our hearts can’t wait to die–to be with God. But if we neglect doing this, we are neglecting our Christian duty, not truly loving them and as horrible as this is, we are actually helping to dam them... We love God by obeying His Word, by following His example and by carrying His cross. When we loose someone or some thing that we are attached to–we can’t wait for it to return and if it can’t return, we run out to get another if possible or we do something else to replace its loss. If we pray and God fills us with unspeakable love, we don’t desire that bliss…we want nothing. He is the Way. What wonderful blessings temptation, suffering and punishments are. Our heart is supposed to only desire to doing things that help us to know, serve and love God–to do things that aren’t for self-love, but love of Him, but most of us live greatly deceived. Oh, sad soul, who wants to live a long life in this wretched world away from Our Beloved, who thinks how sad it is for someone, who is a saint, to die young. Truly God will take care of us, when we care for others. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life (Psalm 139:23-24 NLT). Truly, God alone most certainly provides us with all we need in live perfectly blissful lives without any of those people and things we think we can’t live without. We can love others, but not above God. How can we obtain a true love for God if our eyes are on another? But we can’t have God fill us with His love, if we run to other things to fill us instead. However, plenty of saints have written about this perfect peace God provides, and it is meant for us too. We see this behavior over and over again…from the small things we desire/love…to the greater things we are horribly attached to when we can’t have them. Get back to that place where you craved Him when you first got saved. The evil one desires to cause us to want that love–not God–to keep us temporally happy and lost/deceived. We don’t have fear of the Lord. He will begin to turn our hearts in a way he desires to use us, and we need to trust Him. As I allowed him access to the broken pieces, I found myself hungering for more of him and his word. We need to use it, if it is truly God’s will, to help us grow strong so we can more perfectly know, serve and love God. What an incredible feeling to want God alone…how can words describe what it feels like to be emptied of all we desire and have replaced it with God. What I didn’t know was the journey that was beginning, a journey to change my heart’s greatest desire. We are longing for happiness. This … When we want for nothing, even though we don’t seek God as our source of happiness, God will be our source of joy, but we won’t desire for Him to make us happy–even though He does–we desire NOTHING, but God’s will. This is what is in the heart of someone who truly loves God above themselves–the heart we need to be saved. Read the whole thing. “For what the flesh [our nature] desires is opposed to the Spirit, and what the Spirit desires is opposed to the flesh; for these are opposed to each other” (Galatians 5:17). However, until we have the grace to desire God alone, we actually need the love and affection of others, and sadly we even need the pleasures of this world too, because without them, since we have made them the source of our happiness (and not God), we would live bored, depressed and quite lonely lives. We don’t want the cross, we want our children’s love. “And all of us, with unveiled faces [truly humbled], seeing the glory of the Lord as though reflected in a mirror, are being transformed [loosing our sinful ways] into the same image [of God] from one degree of glory [virtue] to another; for this comes from the Lord, the Spirit” (2 Corinthians 3:18). When we finally grow in God’s grace, God’s power will eventually take over and following God’s commands [His yoke–the Way to help us to Salvation] will finally become easy, and any cross [burden we have to carry] won’t be overwhelming but light. We see this need for the world in human development. “The souls in hell having been found at the moment of death with a will to sin, have with them an infinite degree of guilt; and the punishment they suffer, though less than they deserve [because of the infinite degree of guilt from one act of self-love], is yet, so far as it exists, endless.”Â. And how do we love God–by surrendering our will for His (not sinning). You can read more of Dena’s experiences with her Great I AM on her blog Dena's Devos . Some do pray and read religious books, but it isn’t our true love…it is a burden or done mostly to gain knowledge (to be smarter than others) not to truly know or love God, and sometimes it is out of commitment, not true love. 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